I'm A City
I am a city
The city of life.
My heart is a skyscraper with million views
and my veins are rivers
winding through tributaries, in search of the pristine ocean.
I am moving forward,
but stuck in slow motion.
My lungs are the tree tops,
dancing with fresh buds of new life.
The leaves that fall are the breaths I didn't take.
The wishes I didn't make,
and the smiles I couldn't fake.
They are the breaths I lost when hopelessness settled on my chest,
and the thorn-covered vines of poison ivy
weaved through my heart,
choking me with clawed nails and calloused hands.
I run, and I fall, and still... I don't know how to land.
Will you ever understand?
My eyes are the windows through which I see the world.
But they are dirty.
Smeared with the blood of a thousand insignificant wounds that will never heal.
Poison ivy clings, cobwebs form,
the rivers run dry,
and that ocean; it lies somewhere in the vast expanse of earth,
undiscovered. Untouched.
Clouded by memories of smoke and flames.
The allure that death once held, it remains.
I am a city filled with derelict buildings
and crumbling walls.
I'm not asking for much, I don't want it all.
The dust has settled and formed an impenetrable layer.
I am a heartbeat. One heartbeat away from mass destruction.
Can I rebuild and call it, mass construction?
I am a rollercoaster of emotions,
travelling at the speed of light through grief,
happiness, heartache, and joy.
My life is a lie, my words are a ploy.
Someone told me that once. Do they know words can destroy?
I am a worshipping place
filled with hope, faith, and undying love.
I am an angel bound to heaven.
I lost my chance to fly above.
Through stained glass windows, I see beauty;
I see kindness; I see compassion.
In these pews I will wait,
perhaps here I'll find passion.
I am the midnight sky,
a curtain of darkness
through which you will see nothing but the demons who feed upon my soul,
and remind me, the face I see in the mirror, will never be whole.
But every night when my head hits the pillow,
and I close my eyes to the world,
I wander through dreams, and see things you've never seen,
and I sing to myself, and I sing my own tune.
Because I am the moon.
And I am the sun, and one billion bright stars.
The creator of my destiny, and the owner of these scars.
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